She Will Test You Until She Trusts You

Brother,

A feminine being can sense perfectly the holes in your consciousness that are not totally free, that are not alive as full truth, and whether you like it or not, will poke at them. The Feminine doesn’t care about your history - it cares about who you are being now, and won’t long tolerate anything less than your fullness.

Just like the world will test and teach you, the Great She of the Feminine that is alive and wild in your partner wants to feel your incorruptible consciousness - that presence in you that is deep and structured, passionate and dark, humorous and sturdy - and she will test you until she trusts you.

She wants to feel your heart wide open now - no matter what undone items are brought to light, or how she may criticize your handiwork, or how she may complain about the dishes.

She yearns to feel that you’re totally trustable, that she can’t collapse your consciousness into petty fights and shallow stories.

(By the way, to you, it will probably feel like it’s unfair or like you’re getting picked on, but to her, it will feel like foreplay).

𝑯𝒆𝒓𝒆’𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒌𝒊𝒄𝒌𝒆𝒓: You will practice, you’ll show up fully present, with breath, heart, humor, and confidence, and you’ll think that if you “do it right”, you’ll pass the test and it will all be over...

Sorry, brother. You might have passed 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 test, your depth of consciousness might have opened 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 moment, but it was just 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 moment - the next one will be a blank slate for her to test your depth again.

As soon as she feels you are trustable now, she can relax. Surrender. Swoon.

Then that moment is gone too, and in the next, she’ll prod you in all those places where you’re not free again and again.

𝐴𝑑 𝑖𝑛𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑢𝑚. 𝐷𝑎𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑒𝑛𝑑. 𝑃𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑐𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑐𝑙𝑢𝑠𝑖𝑜𝑛.

Knowing this, keep showing up with your heart wide open, your presence deep, and a wicked smile. Show up alive and in love - conscious as Life itself.

A Noble Man knows there is no better dance, and no more liberating a practice. Ultimately, he is grateful - what better ally is there for his growth?